hmmmm feel like switching back t lj again hee hee. kk byeeeee bye to this blog.

emilia-ch.livejournal!

WHEN WILL U CALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL? ):

today is our day but it kinda went wrong. and from then onwards, 

i feel like crying and i cried and kept crying. i dont like. no good.

i wanna get busy. like really really busy. i want my mind to be somewhere. not here. somewhere else.

i uh, dont know what to do. just wanna be happy. like really really happy.

i swear i was laughing when i read all the previous post and another blog of mine when i had it during secondary school. tskkkkkkkkkkkkk. i didnt know i was LIKE THAT.

i even bitch about the ah lian i hated in secondary sch. lol. ^^ V but i miss those days when jen millie cat manda mich and i  were still together.

SO, how's everyone? my last post was on March. 4months later and im back here. nobody even bother to read this blog but i dont really care and so, many things happened during the past 4 months. well, goods and bads. ups and downs. people come and go. catching up with people i havent met for years. but life still goes on

and it is always unfair. It is beautiful YET complicated.

i always thought of doing something with my life. i slacked for about 2months for my holidays

and FINALLY i got a job and another one coming up. As an assistant trainer teaching digital art at a primary school! thanks to kenny foong for this lobang uh. Another one would be teaching art at a tuition centre or center. correct me if im wrong. not confirm yet though. well, at least i am happy to be able to keep myself occupied. :D 

i guess i'll update when ive the time and when i feel like to. stay safe people! 

i dont know. i dont want. i dont want to feel this way. 

so, i dont know, confused. stress. irritated. 

no i shouldnt be feeling like this. i should be happy:D

i cant, i dont know how.

umm, a lil painful.

sheesh ure so annoying! 

told you told you told you told you!!

mind and heart. which one would u choose?

follow your heart?

or follow your mind?

or

follow your heart using your mind?

hopefully i'll be strong enough to handle this. let me get sick and tired of it.

i really dont know why im doing all these. i feel so sooooooo umm soo like so out of place? seems like it happened before. well, it actually did happened before. like same situation. i can predict the outcome. im really trying not to think far this time round but uhhhhhh, so irritating. tsk. better get my stuff done before i go crazy over Marley! <3

please, not again. 

i dont know, i really dont.

during ccs, sharifa heard guowen pronouced "angsir" instead of "answer" lol so cute.

gw: i didnt said angsir ok, i said answer.

HAHA.

i hold my own happiness. 

thanks kyl for ur beautiful hand:D 

ive decided not to go london. im not even excited unless everyone in my class are going. heh heh heh.

im mother turban cheebeh stress now. dinner at fish and co with liping. need some good food to release stress. love u hon although i really hate her sometimes. ahhaha muack*

time to save money for my future puppy:D cant wait!

i neeeeed a puff.

hello all, THIS is London. i dunno which part. just anyhow kop from the net. lol

AWWWWWWW~~  -pull my hair-

my daddy said, "if you wanna go london, CANNOT BUY PUPPY ALREADY OKAY?!"

-shrug-

photography lesson later. i think im gonna be late for class. suuuuuuuper tired. 

had alot of dreams jus now. lol. dreamt that shermaine became a zombie and was looking for me.

guess i think of left4dead too much alr. lol

uhhhhhhhh, london sounds great but ive always wanted a puppy! which one should i choooooose. 

london trip is kinda rush man. tsktsk. i'll let the fate decide.

gonna be busy these few weeks. its okay! at least ive smth t look forward to this month. :D

i HATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE HATE hate hate hate HATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE HATE hate hate hate HATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE HATE hate hate hateHATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE HATE hate hate hate HATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE HATE hate hatehate hate HATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE HATE hate hate hate HATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE HATE hate hate hateHATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE HATE hate hate hate HATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE HATE hate hate hate HATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE HATE hate hate hate HATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE HATE hate hate hateHATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE HATE hate hate hate HATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE HATE hate hatehate hate HATE hate hate HATE HATE HATE hate hate HATE HATE you still.

no big deal, no big deal.

dont know why im feeling moody today, so decided to buy alot of things to kill off the mood.

and i didnt know it helps. ahahha. sorry pris to make a waste trip to bugis for me. thanks for the meal! treat u back soon k. gonna gamble on fri sat and sunday. so better start doing my work alr. hahaha. 

anyway, zouk on sat with the girls were awesome. been a long time since i went with jen. so happy. :D nice to meet u, cas. haha. yea and i respect u alot, u know why(: keep on going ya. dxo the day before. free flow of drinks man but the crowd sucks la. the music was awesome. nobody was at the dancefloor so its kinda bad. got some commotion after that so pris and i headed to zouk to look for jen and cas. OH i saw shane! so happy! haahha. didnt get into zouk, didnt wana waste that 25bucks. sorry girls):

ytd at jon's place was not so bad. gambled at the last min and i won like about 10bucks plus? :D

so addictive. haaha. OH IVE GOT SMTH TO SAY.

my married cousins are SUUUUPER STINGY. one of them gave angbaos last year and they didnt give this yr. the other one jus got married and they said that they'll only give after a yr later. wtf is this. oh and they said cos of the economy is bad , recession or wadever excuses they can give la. they went to jon's place FOR THE FUCKING $600 buffet with THE FUCKING SHARK FINS and they didnt giveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee any angbaos. DARING HUH. i dont fucking care if any of my them see this. 4bucks wont kill u right. 10kids give u only 40bucks wad.. whats more theyre UUUNNNDERRRGRAD leh.  so calculative right. tsktsk. i'll calculate till i get married. i complained cos im not young anymore. i know wad is supposed to do and whats not. its not about the money. i dont know how to explain. cousins on my dad side didnt drag for a year or so or wadever my mum's side are doing now lor. dunno la, i jus dont think thats the way. like dont respect me like that. ahhahaa. bahhhh

ok honeystar got new flavour! STAWBELI one. hohoo!

took this when i was at cousin's place. saw that lil heart-shaped cloud? 

 i know i'll be happy somewhere.

took this random shot while doing my proj. find it very cute hee. but oh well.

are you, really happy?

okay now i know.

DADDY: AH MEI, 你的头发很像shit eh.

):

ive always wanted a pet dog. but my mum DIE also dont allow me to have one. with a pet at home, the house will be more lively. THEY DONT BELIEVE. cos they dont believe ME. they keep having the mindset that i wont be able to keep it well cos i cant even take care of my own room. lol. and its pretty troublesome. ohwell, i'll get one myself when i have my own place. 

uhhhh the project is really killing me. i thought it's time to forget about it and now ive to think about it again.

KAKU, everyone's looking for you eh dont MIA leh.

i left.

say hello to the teary eyes.

when i finally kept them under my bed, ive to digged them out again. my hands turned cold when i touched those stuffs. so painful that ive to read them all over again. hopefully i get emotional enough to get down on my "broken relationship" project.

yeah, get emo.

sense the fear.

seen every single thing. 

disgusting and heartbreaking. 

smiling happily. 

it could be a nightmare.

and if you could replay the whole scene.

you know, at the familiar place.

Shinee : AMIGO 아.미.고

uhhh, future DBSK. jennica, this group younger. LOL. 

WTF WTF WTF WTF SHINEE IS ON 娛樂百分百!!!!!!!!

watch the rest on youtube. MINHO IS SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEE

MUST LISTENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN. very cute and sweet melody (:

SS501 "Triple S" - U R Man MV

ohya, i saw this grp when i was in korea. i think theyre in rank one so far.

they were performing this song as well. we dont even know who the hell are they la. i know theyre some celebrities so i only managed to take a super blur photo of them cos our bus was about to go off.): quite good looking huh. but cant really dance. ahhaha. until we came back and i turned on to music bank, they were playing this song. my sister and i were like, EH SO FAMILIAR. and tadah. it was them. lol

anyway, this one below is currently my fav song. hahaha. 

uh i wanna go back to koreaaaaaaaaaa!

Wonder Girls-Nobody MV

MUST LISTEN! the mv is a lil draggy though.

ahaha this fella is so cute. look at her expression. ohyea, she walked out of the hotel room in the middle of the night when everyone's sleeping. i think she walked around the corridor and came back. dunno how the hell she came back. scary huh. han bin.

no school for tmr and wed ):

i think im switching back to livejournal.

pissed with those who dont even bother to reply my msg 

shall stop badmouthing about this particular person

sick for the 3rd time within a month

feel like kicking the uncle's balls

 hates the long hours of lesson

cant wait for school to start

needa be smarter this time

get out of the wrong floor

plenty of movies to watch

gonna be voiceless soon

dying to get a puppy

need some fresh air

talking rubbish

need some love

forget about it

misses korea

misses you

being emo

crying

sleep

dont give me rubbish. i'll curse and swear. 

fuck, please dont let it happen again.

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